Saturday, October 27, 2007
everythings stressing me out. sighs. at last i got offered my hall again. hall 3. everything seems so familiar yet so strange. its a feeling i cant describe. everything seems the same but the people there have changed. of course. what can i say. out of all the girls in my block. only 2 are still there. not to mention only ys is left there of my entire course. i used to like going to 3c so much for fun but now that iam an actual occupant there i miss my old block in the corner so so so much. my room that faces the hill and has birds chirping. and the room that does not have the direct sunlight shining in like this one. and of course my room mate. seriously i have so much mixed feelings abt moving back. i dont know when to move in now that my parents are away. to be honest i dont think i would have taken it if not for the fact that i wouldnt know what my timetable would be next sem. If i would have an 830 class. If not i would really prefer staying at home. lifes a paradox. i spent so much time waiting for an offer and now..
actually home alone isnt at bad as i thought. in fact so many people are bringing me food that i think i have more than enough. perhaps everyone knows i dont like to be alone so everyone is coming and that makes me more busy and entertained than normal. went to karen's house for dinner. her mum was so nice to ask me over since she heard i was alone. haha her whole family calls me princess. actually iam not la. haha. maybe just picky. bad habit i know.
hoping that i'll fit in well with my NEW room mate and everythings gonna be fine cos its a busy period now and i dont think i have the mood for unhappy stuff. stats and maths is driving me mad really. id honestly do millions of thousand word essays. speaking of which these irritate me so to the extent i cant even have patience for french.
ooh forgot to say that i got the Front Desk position for my US work and travel job. Its in Yellowstone National Park in Wyoming USA. they say its 4 times the area of singapore! be prepared to see my bright smile at the counter. no tips i think but well its a gd experience! everyone else i know will be in the kitchen. so i hope i meet interesting ppl there to keep me entertained. haha.
everythings just gonna turn out fine. =) i miss my whole family. who are now in casablanca moving to spain and melbourne respectively.
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6:06 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
home alone day one today. i started feeling sad yday night alrdy. not to mention today. parents off to middle east spain and europe for abt a month. and now big girls dont cry is playing on the radio. so true.
lotsa things have been happening though its supposed to be exams and im supposed to be studying. haha. went for supper on sat with timothy and karen. karen is getting cranky nowadays. refused to go home after geylang and so we went to the esplanade. reminded me of hall 3 and supper outings. haha.talked to her mother too. haha. she asked me to go to her hse so she could make bread for me cos she wants to see me. haha. reminded me of dada's mother tickling my chin like a kid that day when i went to her hse for raya. delicious food. dawn u missed out! haha. ooh back to esplanade..seriously that was the first time i saw the port so bustling with activities. at like what 2am? makes me feel kinda happy that i'll be there one day. and karen was happily spilling the beans on whatever embarrassing things i did that night. emm. ok lets just laugh it off. why cant anyone get over the fact that im slow at plate washing! but really the plates are damn clean ok. haha.
and on fri we went to timbre. met up with pri sch frens. before that went to bugis to shop for stuff for them. i wanted to buy so much stuff but had simply no time! and i think we went to timbre too early. i mean the band starts at 1030. who goes at 830. but well good thing is we didnt have to q. mich was so into the singer. whats his name? ngak. i think. haha. when we sent in a guess for how much their guitar costs i wrote. from mich. who says hi. haha. shes lucky i dint put her hp no in. haha. but he didnt give any response anyway. later when we left saw him at the entrance. seriously he looks v old. i guessed 24 from the seats we were at but later i think 29. haha. but the thing is i seem to have a thing for 987fm after that night.
suddenly feel like sitting at the esplanade and falling asleep there. while looking at the bright port. when i have a million things to do.
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11:08 PM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
somehow i have this inherrent dislike to rich boys who were born with a silver spoon in their mouth and who just drive a lexus out of nowhere since its daddy's gift . those who dont have to work for anything and maintain that "i have it all" attitude. seriously. so what. right. so u impress by signing daily bills of a few thousand bucks at clubs for drinks. and im supposed to wow at the non chalent-cy at which u spend. and crash all your luxury cars. BM after merz. lets see. i dont. i am rather more impressed at those who try hard to make life better for their parents and all at home and work their way up and being contented at the same time. not that i have anything against being rich. its the attitude. you idiot. iam not a bimbo girl waiting to marry into a rich family and sit to be a tai tai. that is WHAT you DONT get.
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6:10 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
bOo. finally rest time again. so tired these days. getting sick of driving. the PIE seems never ending. plus the fact that i think i got snapped by the stupid speed cam for my first time. seriously. who drives at 80. no one except maybe an 80 yr old old granny.
jen used to say i hv a low EQ. i didnt think so. now yes cos i realise moods show on my face regardless of if i want it to or not and v badly sometimes. sigh. sometimes maybe during those times its better if i was left alone. its like that it hink cos norm im quite easily tickled and made v happy so i guess the other side applies too.
jay's new album is coming. his pure innocent simple side in the past has transformed into this showy obsessive totally cannot accept any criticism superstar. I miss him in the past. is this what fame does to a person? its like he now thinks he holds the passport to do anything he wants and disregard anyone he likes.
i want to do so many things with so little time. hee. ooh i hv yet to say how i noticed how falling in love changes a person. haha. makes me think abt zara boy. zara boy looks yummy-lious but seriously i think i wouldnt want to date him. haha. i read abt a sentence "guys think girls want to be a sold a dream". but all we want is reality. sometimes u look at a person and u think they have it all when really why does the worst have to happen to them. to her, i wish her happiness. and thats my love of the day thought. haha.
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6:45 AM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
irritating! very irritating. some people just dont get it that its over. ugh ugh ugh whining and being all emo is not going to work nor is a pathetic attempt to make me feel pity and guilt gg to. this is only gg to reemphasize the fact that it will never work. isnt this always the paradox in life? the things that u want to happen dont and those u want to avoid just keep happening. i have a piece of advice for someone. dont waste time on someone who isnt willing to spend time on you. serious. worst still when the only thing u can do is nag whine stick to and pester. it would be entirely diff if it was understanding being there and sacrificing which YOU THINK you are doing but no No NO. things happen for a reason.
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3:15 AM
