Tuesday, May 22, 2007
louise! u bloody liar! dont play alrdy or else u'll be facing what u dont want to face soon enough. u just like the feeling that uve won right. u damn childish la. and i just realised the easiest way to win is just by keeping quiet and looking weak. damn.
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11:45 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
Yongjie... says:
i will refrain from laughing at u for abt 1 day in sch nex sem...
meanie!!!!
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8:58 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
they always tell me dont play. sy says i overestimate my ability in defense. i think i can hold but in fact i cant and will lose sooner or later. dory says dont because that person is crazier than u are. vn says no cos that person is willing to put more at risk than u are.
on retrospect i seem to have had that mindset all along - that "bring it on" "i dont believe i cant deal with u" mindset. but maybe its true. and the only weakness is i dont believe my weakness.
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10:47 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
many people dont seem like what they are and sometimes it makes me believe the most flirtatious of guys are actually the most devoted just that u dont know and the most self claimed devoted ones are just pure liars and out to gain people's pity. its even more touching when u find out what he has done without "using a loudhailer" telling everyone how grateful you should be since he did so much for you. and that is a penny for thought.
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10:17 AM
Monday, May 14, 2007
Just came back from bangkok. freaking tired and i think iam gg to fall sick. i think my body's really weakened after i started uni. 6 whole days of shopping nearly killed me though yeah i admit i enjoyed every bit of it and eating too heee =)
that day i bought a rose from a little boy selling them and while buying stuff later gave it to another little girl tending the stall. that rose..although was bought by me myself and less than 5 mins later given away.. but i think that it held more meaning than any other flower that i have recieved be it vday my bday or what cos i'll always rmb how happy i felt when the little boy gave me the flower. so if anyone wants to make me that happy.. well.. try beating that little boy's smile although he cant speak a word of english.
sometimes i need to have that little courage to go for what i want. people tell me i have many sides to my character. i think so and it depends who u are to see which side. ive given it much thought. life's to be happy right. nothing tops the guts to call ocm so if i could do that..whats the problem with this one. ya and i have 3 more to deal with.
did i mention. i love my family. okay a bit old fashioned. shall not elaborate. haha.
and i resign to my fate of being a part time bimbo.
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10:11 AM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
I DONT LOOK LIKE AN AH LIAN or a jpop princess! i refuse to. and i refuse to be labelled bimbo either. i think being labelled kiddie is better than that. haha. bored of shopping and stuff so soon. like barely a wk after exams. guess ive been so busy for so long that its weird not to for now. thank god iam leaving for bangkok later. what can i do for these 3 mths.. hmm.. have to find someting to do. i wanna learn thai boxing. haha. and wat will be will be. so we'll just let things be. i miss hall u know. sometimes they call and ask me go out but after that i cant go back to hall!!!!!!! and not home either or i'll so get slaughtered. dory says ive grown up esp in my thinking. i think so too.
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12:51 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007
the dangerous things are not things that happen "BOOM" in front of you..but those that creep in slowly and that u find out unaware suddenly at that moment just before u fall asleep.
and being the super duper undecisive me. 100 percent is spilt.
u want this one. but there is every single thing except that one. and u also like that other one somewhere else. damn. and those that just keep pushing themselves in front of u.
if opposites attract then why do opposites have to clash in the very end? i cant imagine. kids ought to stick to kids right? i dunno. really.
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9:06 AM
