Friday, April 27, 2007
FINALLY..exams are over and its play time. some were ok some were disastrous but whatever, its just over.
been so tiring. i wonder if its cos ive been waiting so long for this that i cudnt stand not doing anything once its over. went out right after that then later came back only to end up in KTV with hall guys and later supper at railwaymall. KTV. damn.. i was the only girl and noone absolutely noone sings S.H.E with me. and my voice very kiddie meh. and the milk tea caused like everyone to have the runs. haha. came back hall at 5am. only to wake up at 8 for breakfast then finally home to sleep then BBQ at tuntun's place. yj and zh went into the pool. ken nearly got dragged. and i got splashed with 7up. so much for relentlessness to girls. and zh! i'am gg to rmb ur sabo during 007 bang to make me drink lo. ha. think we were so noisy that we got complained and the security guard had to come over. and no lo. none of us got wasted like last time and i didnt walk in straight up to get carried out wasted! yj! ur the one. haha. and my legs are like jelly from all the stretching. yups now i feel all beaten up.
and there are no nice phone models for me to change! i want a new phone.
so many things so little time. waiting! haha
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8:40 AM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
more and more papers to go. i never thought id be sad for exams but good grades are contagious and when u get better u just cant stand the thought of going down. its an ego problem.
and sometimes i just want to be alone. or to be with those whom i want. those whom i am not interested in i just dont have the patience to entertain you, but some people dont get the hint. i might be extremely in the mood when iam with my frens but then its cos i like them and if u dont fall in that category then dont assume i'll be the same to u.
ppl just cant read me can they. and i thought my moods were always displayed on my face.
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8:50 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
okay its time for exams and ive finally got over the worst time of my semester. namely spending time in adm from 1130am t0 230am then 430pm to 330am two days in a row. even without air con and ventilation. you can so die in the darkroom. although photography gave me lots of extra stress and work but i dont think i regret any bit of it at all. ive learnt alot from there not only skills but perspective.
but the thing that was most cutting wasnt that. it was what i heard frm her. seriously it was only then and there that i knew why she was friends with her for so long. i used to wonder why since i saw no similarities between them but now i know why. Its in thinking of that anybody that behaves in a way that she cannot comprehend is impossible and in other words "different". I know what she says is to some extent correct but cant she understand that i just want to be who i want to be. I know that nothing can force me to change but myself so if thats the case then nothing will help. So then why cant you give me a break. At that time could you not tell that i wasnt in the mental capacity for that. Perhaps this is why the better of friends you are the more it hurts because i know you said that for my own good. i dont know. maybe it was the timing. Maybe its my character but cant u tell that since ive lived like that for the past nearing twenty years then its a hint that i go that way? and dont u think my other frens feel that way. well either they dont or they dont show it. thats what are friendships. accepting for who they are, not trying to change someone. I really know u mean well but before i myself can accept it. its not the time now. you told me u've given up trying but do u know u still are...i give up.
but i must say iam lucky and very lucky to meet the people i do along the way of my life and those who are just so nice. to everyone at pho 215 who made me cry in order for my smile to come out at the end of the day. Thank you. so much.
and later on fri i saw someone else. she was on her way to look for him. i nearly went nuts. he is probably the only person with the ability to stun me that way.
okay. i need to study.
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7:58 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007
its quite funny to see how different ppl react. actually i also dont know what i want but sometimes u just meet the wrong ppl for the wrong reasons and hopefully in time to come u'll meet the right one for the right reason. as usual..should i? it kinda depends on my mood which always if not brings me to make the wrong decision.
but right now iam so sick that i only want to recover for the pressing exam period and stuff.. the rest.. doesnt really matter till then.
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10:05 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
as usual your attempt to impress me has been reduced to mere irritation and discontempt. how can u even say part time gf. i pity that girl seriously although i doubt the iq maturity of her to agree to this. its either all or nothing in a relationship and the attempt to make me jealous and realise how good you are is failing miserably. it only further shows the state you are in. save me the heartbroken shit. i have absolutely no energy to entertain you. so if u think ive been gg out so be it (again so what if i do. i do what i please and its none of your business), if u think doing this shows devotion and the ability to handle matters so be it. i mean, get a life. seriously. i refuse to let u get to me. your self delusion ends with you. thats it.
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10:49 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
-谁能凭爱意要富士山私有-
原来我爱上了富士山.
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3:27 AM
陈奕迅-富士山下
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拦路雨偏似雪花
饮泣的你冻吗
这风褛我给你磨到有襟花
连调了职也不怕
怎么始终牵挂
苦心选中今天想车你回家
原谅我不再送花
伤口应要结疤
花瓣铺满心里坟场才害怕
如若你非我不嫁
彼此终必火化
一生一世等一天需要代价
谁都只得那双手靠拥抱亦难任你拥有
要拥有必先懂失去怎接受
曾沿着雪路浪游为何为好事泪流
谁能凭爱意要富士山私有
何不把悲哀感觉假设是来自你虚构
试管里找不到它染污眼眸
前尘硬化像石头
随缘地抛下便逃走
我绝不罕有往街里绕过一周我便化乌有
情人节不要说穿只敢抚你发端
这种姿态可会令你更心酸
留在汽车里取暖应该怎么规劝
怎么可以将手腕忍痛划损
人活到几岁算短失恋只有更短
归家需要几里路谁能预算
忘掉我跟你恩怨樱花开了几转
东京之旅一早比一世遥远
靠拥抱亦难为你拥有你还嫌不够
我把这陈年风褛送赠你解咒
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3:22 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
got sick. prob when i walked back from cant A at 330am, cos i felt the wind was so cold. anyway the next morn my whole body was aching with a throat that hurt so much. and so we cancelled on lunch. linda came over and made me something nice for the throat. i feel absolutely touched by her! i love xiao yu! anyway after that i slept trying to get up for 330 class but then my head was blasting away. called mum and went home to see the doc. she freaked out. after an injection and some sleep soooo much better so i went to the exhibition in the morn. seems we have a bright future ahead.
quoted :"its thru the unglam work that brings u a glamourous life."
so true. homework and studying is so unglam!
yj is so uncle koh today. and i just found out. hes so afraid of tickles. haha. actually we have such an interesting cohort. haha.
but i still feel very so lethargic. i resisted gg shopping today at marina cos i was simply too tired.
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4:58 AM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
met up wif dee that day and realised that we're actually quite the same in the sense that we know its wrong but still.. sighs. anyways we had thai! omg freakin gd! esp for someone like me who doesnt eat chilli. sometimes on my blog when i scold ppl its actually that iam scolding myself. cos i know its wrong.
for now i just want to slow down. do work as in homework. and let things fall into place. esp after kl kept laughing at that incident! why am i always into such situations. does my face have the sign "disturb me : i want attention" written all over it?
i dont like being hunted. i like to hunt. haha.
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8:55 AM
