Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Tml is nov starting alrdy. iam going to be 19 this month. i dun feel like letting go of my 18. i dun even feel 19. i'll learn though. to know that like 19, some things are unavoidable. like i cant harp on the things btwn us anymore and whats meant to be will be. i know what has happened and precisely thats why i cant bring myself to do anything anymore. i think we'll just keep quiet. whether u know or not whether it will be or not. live let...go
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7:43 AM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
its funny to hear from you from other people who i have met for the first time. then our whole conversation revolves round you. it seems like ur forever there. i dunno. i know that no matter what happens now what i dreamt of then will still hold cos its prob what i felt subconsiously that resulted in the dream. i wasnt able to say so confidently then and i am sure i cant now in reality either. so maybe its for the best.
我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后是否能让什么复活
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9:59 AM
Friday, October 20, 2006
top ten reasons why jtfr will not exist:
1. i dun wan the wedding to be held in mos
2. i dun wan to get married wearing a mini skirt
3. i dun wan the wedding song to be tokyo drift
4. i dun wan the wedding dinner not to have anything else but hard liqour
5. i dun wan the wedding dinner to exist of people that are cheongsters ONLY
6. i dun wan my kid to follow such a dad
7. i dun wan to face two timing on the first night of my wedding.
8. i dun wan to face an unstable life in future
9. i dun want to have that hairstyle at the wedding
10. i dun want to regret it.
yupps. damnit. by the way someone can come and die of alcohol poisoning. i dun care.
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12:14 PM
There were too many things that happened recently. The one that i dont want to play with or want anything to do with, will talk to me and the one that i want to talk to i will always end up pretending not to see. or if i see not to care. and the one i nv expected to care or even talk to me did. damnit. jen said :so after so long u find out jt is the one? Damnit i dun want jt. we will never have the same frequency even if we look or feel the same ok. just kill me. i end up thinking like a small girl again. freak. i dont like surprises. i dont like change in tastes. no. no. no. i think even jumpy is better.. help!
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6:51 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i am very happy. i got what i wanted. his response.
Today he was very very very cute. he gave me a thousand expressions which i hope i will remember always even till the day when i grow up and look back at this.the way he smiles the way he looks at me..the way he stones..the way he walks..the way he picks up balls..the way he leans against the wall..every single detail.. iam going to record everything now..
*why u so sian sit there..
then he pouted his mouth
*someone bully u ah..who bully u ,u tell me i beat him..___ ah..haha.
rubs eyes faking to cry
^u lo...
pretends to hit with fist.
FREAKING CUTE..esp the way i stick out my tongue and he opens his mouth to play with his handphone just in reaction to me..i do once he do once. so cute.
and the way he pretends to be frankenstein looking at me in the killer way when he opens the door for me..
the way he can jump down half a flight of stairs when i push him from the back and say " oh hor u are pronounced guilty for murder" when i said ur not even dead yet.. and the way he smiles when he doesnt know what to do in reaction to me.
so many the way the way the way.
the way he says that i cant and stand no hope in doing well in my post jokingly by exaggerating his surprise.. the way his eyes open wide.
the way he does everything. the way he kicks the ball and jumps the way he runs to pick up the ball the way he does everything.
the way I could stand there for hours looking at the way he plays and just him and him only. the way. its in the way that u do everything.
its in the way that u move me in the way that i cant find the right words to say..i feel it in the way.
i want to see u smile. thats all. i hope u know.
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9:56 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
i believe too much in fairytales. too much to face reality. i dont think i ever will. bcos i dun ever want my fairytale to break and shatter even if that means hiding.
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10:38 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Its the aftermath of the incident. i think he knows that i feel funny and am not normal when i am ard him. but then accrding to jen he is outta the situation so i really dunno if he knows. i feel very guilty for running away but then..i dunno what to do and i guess i am not ready. not even to see him. ocm fu ren wake up! please dont smile at me and stand at attention with your shoulders broad spread, i cannot stand it! oh and one more thing. i have confidence in myself! mf's training has not gone to waste. if they like softies i dun care.
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10:28 AM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
3rd Oct Tuesday.
As usual the day started for me before jen's. It was still drizzling outside when i left the room leaving jen alone.
It was time for lesson at 930am.
Still, unusual stuff juz had to happen to me.It's O-C-M!!!
(OCM is only between me and jen if u're wondering muahahahaha)
Right person juz like to appear at the wrong time wrong place when i'm in the wrong mood.
No matter how much I wanted to say "I'm SO happy to see u!!Really!!" again as usual...i still choose the stairs in the end. It juz sucked me over.
And as usual after so many millions lessons..i m, w/o fail, ever bothered by my act of hiding lk a turtle in its shell.......
Please murder me even if im in the shell.Crash me or something w a hammer...
Juz let me die...mayb OCM would have noticed me tis way=D
(posted at 8.09pm by my shiyou in the midst of rushing her biz law report.....touched)
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4:50 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
i dunno what to feel. id rather not feel anything at all.
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8:15 AM
