Saturday, April 29, 2006
why everyone ask me why i nv work then they assume i do nothing at home. Thats not true i am very busy. thats why sometimes i dun even hv time to take note of others or respond. jian ren says this is why i am destined to be a tai tai next time. i sooOO disagree. i will die of boredom being a tai tai. i want challenges ok. anyway *damn* my specs just broke. in the middle into two. metal specs. argh.nvm. Met jj last week at mf and went to jj party. so rocks. he is so cute. took pic with him he ask me still want to take again anot and pulled me closer. haha. ok. StOp. everyone is censoring me on the nick " no more j but jj". think i will nv get my license in driving cos i always speed. big deal. everyone who knows me knows how much i adore initial D. anyway still think my hair is not growing at all. might just snip it if i cant stand it anymore. still gg for physio. ttsh is gg to become v familiar to me now. taking horrible joint and bone pills that old ppl at 70 do. damn. i am only 18 not 80. i am nt letting this drag me down. nope.
oh and when u realise the intention of some people u find they are damn hypocritical. man.. i hv given u enough chances to prove urself. to prove that u hv some difficulty or some mood swing or unspeakable irony or some screw loose.. hence it is not me who is being unreasonable but u. U you. Enough is enough. i hv been nothing but tolerant. there is something called the limit. i hv tried to be nice to put things thru. if u cant read the hint or anybody else. get off my back. No means nO dun wan means dun wan. i am not at all interested in what u think. i still hv my brains which can reason to a certain degree. though most of the time i am oblivious to things ard me but when it is too obvious I CAN SEE. some ppl cant i can. gosh why do ppl like hving grey areas. WHITE IS WHITE BLACK IS BLACK!
there now u hv some story to read abt. to my fren who always complains that my entrees are hard to understand. i am now writing in plain english. no metaphors no irony. Even i hv grown up. to that person. grow up too. MENTALLY.
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9:26 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
yj is missing in action. dunno why. come to think of it maybe what he said makes sense. I wun dare to complain anymore alrdy la. I know it alrdy. really. cos those are really..sigh. a) irritating b) attention seeker c) sensually disturbing. sigh sigh. wonder when will i hear frm yj.
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4:29 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I spent today wandering ard almost everyplace possible. I walked every shop, street ,sat at every bus stop i passed just to let time go by. Life is pathetic when u dun hv a destination and dun feel like gg anywhere to see anybody.And it made it worse when i wasnt near home.Surprisingly i actually wanted to go home to sulk. Someone told me the best way to make amends is to learn from it and prove it by doing better next time. I hope so. Sorry is not enough. Theres nothing i can do but stone and hope everything willl pass. On addition to that, things are beyong my control. Why take it away when ive started to realise the importance of it.
"I cant just cant. Sorry"
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9:26 AM
Friday, April 14, 2006
i'am trying very hard.. i tell myself that after hiding for a while u must face it in the end. u cant just avoid it and play to forget abt it. i am trying. everyone tells me that its my own decision but i cant decide for myself. i hate being dictated yet i cant decide what to do. thats the thing i hate to follow what people tell me to yet what am i gg to do?
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5:39 AM
Friday, April 07, 2006
Everything they said i just cudnt say..except bye. I realised lions are meant for the wild and not to be dressed in nice costumes to perform. Its always like oh the baby lion is so cute but ya only for 3 mths. I saw it and although was prepared for it well noting beats seeing it for real.
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3:49 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
Maybe its good to be superficial cos the more in depth u get the more put off u are. and thats the reason why between j and l there is always a letter in the middle. thats how the alphabet is.
dreams just seem to drift away further and further. life is like a chess game every step u take will limit your next step of choices.
"i cant let u do it."
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5:48 AM
